There is something to be said about knowledge - it is most definitely power. But it is in using that power that we discover what kind of power we truly wield.
I just went back and listened to the recording I have of the very first phone call I ever made to Leah. I had two immediate reactions. One was surprise - when I began talking during the phone call, I was speaking with very labored breathes, like I was gasping for air. Yet I knew from memory that I was simply sitting in the library using my laptop. There was no reason to be struggling the way I was just in order to breath normally. The second thing I noticed was how surprised I was about literally every single thing that Leah told me. I was so clueless - to the point that I actually laughed several times while listening to it, just because my reactions to everything she was telling me was so funny to me, given what I know now. It seems so silly to me listening back to that very first phone call. I knew so little. I knew nothing, really.
Leah still tells me new things I didn't know all the time. Her power is tremendous. I am aware that the spiritualist she is fighting against for my sake also possesses allot of knowledge and power. But of course, the two main differences is that the spiritualist we are fighting against is completely evil. This battle Leah and I have been fighting has taken a long time and Leah warned me in that first phone call how long this was going to take, and informed me that I needed to make a decision about it.
From the sounds of that phone call I don't think I understood at that point what she meant, simply because at the time, I was looking for answers. It just had never occurred to me that I could choose to not fight what was going on. It wasn't what I considered an option - I just knew that something needed to be fixed.
Back then seems so long ago now - when I listened to it, I remembered and felt the level of despair I felt back then. I remembered how hard life was. I remembered how it felt to almost make the decision to walk away from the love of my life and never see him again - assuming at the time that this was actually what he wanted. My heart had been utterly broken both last year and then this year as well. I was almost ready to give up, assuming that everything that had happened was because of my soulmate and his actions, not because of anything or anyone else. I had given up on the idea that he genuinely loved me.
Life has been extremely hard these last few months. There was what seemed almost like a grace period between that first phone call and November, during which allot of negative energies were lifted by Leah and life began to run extremely smoothly. At that point, the evil we were fighting was still trying to maintain the negativity they'd placed on myself and my soulmate but once they realized that they would definitely lose this battle November started and they began focusing all of their energies on me.
But the difference between now and then is that now I know what's going on - now I have Leah to talk to and help me through all of it.
I had begun to feel the weight of all of the issues throughout November and December, and I had begun to wonder again: When is this all actually going to end for me? When will my life finally be normal again.
Nothing I have ever endured can equal the nightmare that this year has been. Nothing. But when I listened to that very first phone call with Leah again, I remembered how bad my life was. I remember how much pain I was in - I remember how confused and exhausted I was. I remember how hard it was some days just to move, just to do small tasks, just to get to and from work - let alone work. My heart was completely broken and I lived the life of a zombie - with almost no emotion, no energy, barely any will left to live. I didn't want to do this anymore.
There is such a vast difference between then and now - the biggest one being simply that I now understand when certain things happen and I know what to do - even if it's literally just as simple as going to Leah and asking what was going on or what I should do to stop or change something.
We have come a long way in this spiritual war. Life may still be hard now, but I remember how much harder it was back then and I know my life has changed in absolute leaps and bounds. There is still a long way to go, but we have crossed the longest stretch of it. Life is still hard but I am insanely grateful for the chance I have been given to help Leah fight this battle. I have faith that Leah has the knowledge, strength and power to win this, in fact I know she can and will. Not all of the evil in the universe could beat what Leah fights for.
Knowledge garners power - but a persons choice to abuse this knowledge or use their knowledge for what's right and decent shows whether they just hold power in their grasp - or infinite wisdom as well.
Leah has this wisdom. She is stronger than evil and more powerful than anything an evil spiritualist could ever throw at her. She knows exactly what she's doing. Everything I come to her with she has an answer for - she is infinitely wise and blessed by God. She is an incredible human being.