Finally got the truth. I called Katarina to see if she could provide context based on something I felt and she totally did. She gave me the raw truth and what I had been feeling since trying to take up more space in my relationship with POI instead of being pushed around or him taking up all the space and air in the room. It's funny when you start to ask for what you need, those who can't handle it show their true colors. I feel I got the truth of the situation now. She also tapped in that I haven't healed from the grief of my mentor's passing yet and I've been distracting myself which is totally true. I appreciate her also saying I don't need to go through grief by myself although I was pushing people away. Thank you for your insight and seeing the core of this situation today. Will call back!